Caring deeply for people can make you do things that you never thought you'd do before, react like you never thought you'd react before, and think like you never thought you'd think before. It makes us open up our emotions to a level of such vulnerability...and while vulnerable, we are also weak. This certainly isn't a bad thing, though.
It is absolutely okay to feel. We are all afraid of stepping in too deep and potentially getting shipwrecked, but the feelings that come with love, with being in love, is one of the greatest feelings known to human kind (and in my opinion: even better than an orgasm most times). It is also okay to fall first. There is no rhyme or reason as to how fast one can or can't fall. We all come from different relationship backgrounds where just as one could be so hurt they can't open up, one can be so ready and moved on from their past they can open up sooner. Even if the two of you don't work out, you would have shared something extremely incredible, both together and for yourself. Life doesn't always allot for relationships to exist for "forever," but it certainly does present us with the ability to love if given reason enough to.
By putting ourselves out there we are also risking getting hurt, yes. Jealousy doesn't come from a negative intention, though! It means that there are emotions involved, feelings opened up and a little bit of hurting going on. What we do when jealous or upset is act out. Not always for the better, but there is most definitely a reaction. You do control your actions, though. It doesn't take much to hurt someone when they like you, especially when them liking you is something you're aware of. So when someone acts out, specifically negatively, you have all right to be hurt but should also take into consideration what made him or her act that way. Part of love is also forgiveness, and the willing to work together to move forward.
Emotions are a tender thing: so easily bruised but not so easily healed. Love will never be rational, no matter how hard you try to make it be. When hurt, frustrated or angry while in love, caring or loving someone - our first instinct is to protect ourselves. It doesn't feel good to hurt, to feeling bruised - to feel vulnerable, so we don't always pick the best way to react.
If you have a partner that you feel is always overreacting or being hypersensitive to things then you need to discuss with them that a) it's something that's bothering you and b) figure out what it is they need so they won't react like that anymore. If the discussion between the both of you brings about a positive change and something you feel will work then go for it; if it is something you don't think you can handle or would rather not handle then be honest and tell him or her that.
If you feel that you're jealous, acting out or unhappy then you should say something too. Don't put blame on that person, however, just bring up that you are feeling uncomfortable lately and why. Discuss everything you're feeling and together figure out what the next step is going to be.
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All we can do is love until we can't. Again, we all have tolerance levels. Levels at which we know what we can and cannot handle. Love is not easy, it is not rational, it is not perfect. But to feel it, even for a moment, feels amazing. Regardless what it does to us, how it does it to us, who stays, who goes, etc. it was truly worth it to feel the good parts while it was good, or to continue to feel good while it's good. Having the ability to feel that great is worth it.
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